I’ve finally stopped being incredibly envious of other peoples lives. No, not even that, it goes deeper than that. It’s as if the ability to care so desperately has been plucked out by its very roots and I’m left with this beautiful paradox of looking into the window of a life that boasts everything that I do not have, and I feel incredible warmth and joy for that life.
Without the slightest hint of envy.
Even though I crave all of that which I am gazing upon and I am still on the outside looking in.
It fills my heart with joy to realize that another persons happiness and well-being are not the cause of my bitter envy and urge to compete. To want even better than that. To always have the upper hand. The last word. The last laugh.
Another’s joy fills me with joy.
This catches me by surprise.
I am content to sit back and to sink into the wonderful knowledge that soon my turn will come as well, soon my heart will be full to bursting and I will never have to compete with anyone ever again. Not even myself. And believing this means already enjoying the fullness that flows into my heart and spills out into my soul.
Author: ebonyandcrows
Hello and welcome to my page~
My name is Larisa--a very common Slavic name that was either derived from the Latin word hilaris, meaning "cheerful," or from the Greek city of Larissa, meaning "strong fortress."
Born in Ukraine, I emigrated with my family to America when I was still a small child and now make my home in the beautiful Pacific Northwest. Growing up immersed in two vastly differing cultures led me to have a burning curiosity about people all over the world. Stemming from said curiosity, I have fallen in love with traveling to other countries, meeting new people and delving into their culture, exploring new cities, and of course, dining on the local cuisine!
If I cannot escape into a different country, then my next favorite method of adventure is to lose myself in a spectacular book. I enjoy books of all genres--from fiction and novels, to biographies and ethnographies. As long as it captures my fancy and holds me spellbound the entire time, I will burn through the book like a forest fire! Because of this penchant for reading and travel, coupled with my love of deep and mysterious things, I have been often called a dreamer and I find the title suits me.
With that being said, I invite you to stay a while, perhaps make yourself a cup of tea and linger through my posts and feel free to comment or share a thought :-)
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Great post 🙂
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Thank you 💕
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No problem 🙂 check out my blog when you get the chance 😄
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Life is so much better when you can “rejoice with those who rejoice.” (Romans 12:15)
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I wholeheartedly agree. It has taken me an arduous and incredibly long journey, unfortunately, to be able to grow to this point. Sometimes we think we “believe” Scripture, but we don’t really know what it looks like in the real world until we are forced to learn it in our own failures. And oh boy do we learn.
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I really enjoyed reading this post.
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I’m glad you liked it!
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It’s a beautiful state of being, LariSa. 😊
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I see what you did there 🧐😅
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😉. It’s my iPhone again. Very naughty is he.
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I forgive him for the effort of spelling my name correctly 😌
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Thank you. I’ve threatened him to get a replacement droid if it happens again.
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Nooo not a droid! That should definitely keep the fear of God in your iPhone!
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Do I know how to intimidate phones or what? 😊
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Any late night reading last night 😉
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Revealing my secrets will cost you something, you know..
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A risk I’m willing to take😊
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Rob, I think your iPhone is not the only thing that can be naughty!
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Ahhhh! I understand totally now. You’ve been naughty 🤣😉
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Lol! No silly, I’m referring strictly to you!
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So, ummm, you’ve seen on of my artistic posts?😎😁
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You are an artist through and through. I am not brave enough to be that transparent on the internet 🙈 I bare myself in other ways.
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Yes, your words bare you at times 😊
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These are not my secrets we are discussing, we are discussing yours 🙊
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Or possibly not so secret ? 🤓
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